Still going through the hardest time of my life right now. The Zoloft is helping a lot. The physical symptoms are muted. The therapy may or may not be helping. I’ve gone twice and I will go back next week.
My relationship feels very normal and comfortable. There is still a lack of intimacy and sometimes affection. I’m just trying to be patient to see if it comes back naturally or what. Date nights begin a bit awkward but then seem to go fine after we get in the groove.
The kids are fine and oblivious. I have a baby shower tomorrow that I do not want. A lot of family and some friends of my sister will be there. People I don’t really want to interact with. And they all know what I’m going through, so double awkward.
I just keep praying and hoping for things to get back to normal, but better. For both of us.
Running happens on most days. I don’t think I have done a 10 miler yet this month though. My longest run has been just over 8 and I try to do at least that much every week. Some mornings I am just too anxious to run or I am extra exhausted from emotions and pregnancy. I had a nice run at the park on Sunday morning while Red was in Sunday school. Being outside for the first time in a while was hard. I felt every incline. I also ran outside two other days when it was nice this week. Sometimes it was a struggle, but I enjoyed the fresh air. My support belt has been helpful.