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I can’t remember the last time I ran a decent amount outside.  I think I’ve run outside twice since E’s birth and once was just around the block because it was too icy.  Plus I was doing mostly treadmill running in the last weeks before she was born.  Am I in for a pain when I start heading out again?  I guess I won’t have to worry about that too much because temps are still well below freezing and will be for the next 10 days…according to the Weather Channel anyway.

My runs this week were pretty dang good.  I tried to go fast and I did.  I did a half marathon tempo pace run.  It was 7:25 average but if I subtract the first mile then I got in 7:18s for 5.5 miles.  That would barely be good enough to get me a PR, but I have still got time to train.  Problem is, I need to go faster and further.  I did 10 miles on my day off on Tuesday.  I actually got to sleep in until 6:30 a.m.  Then I got Red ready for school, dropped her off, and came back to run.  RKY watched E and she napped most of it.  She came down and watched me run the last couple of minutes and gave me goofy grins.  Things with her took a turn for the worse this week though.  She started throwing fits and going through cycles of crying and thrashing, then napping for 20-30 minutes and waking up screaming and repeating this over and over.  We thought her ear infection was back but nope.  The Dr. is suspecting reflux, but she is kind of old for that to be just showing up my non-expert opinion anyway.  She has some Zantac to try.  I am hoping we can not use it for too long though.  It is scary to see your baby in that much pain and knowing that something is very wrong.  But reflux isn’t that bad of a problem to have really.

Tomorrow is my running day off.  I am looking forward to sleeping in a little bit.  But sleeping in means waking up to pump in the early morning and then trying to go back to sleep.  I need to start dropping pumps.  Would be nice to get down to 5 and maybe even 4.  But I don’t have time to make those longer sessions.   Gotta read up on that.


what’s it like to be a working parent?  well i can say that i am amazed at how much time I frittered away before I had kids.  Seriously.  wtf was I doing all day when I could have been out saving the world?  or at least the dogs of the world.


alarm goes off at 4:27 a.m. i go downstairs and immediately eat a snack because SUGAR ADDICTION.  (it’s so bad lately yikes) It’s a sugar cookie and some Reese’s PB chocolate spread.  I feed the dogs and let them out.

4:40 a.m. the dogs are back inside so I settle onto the couch to pump.  I browse Instagram while I pump and sometimes read magazines on zinio.  My boobs are finally empty around 5:05.  (20 ounces!) There are no empty bottles to fill or wash so i cap them and put them in the fridge.  then i clean out my other two so I can use them to pump later.

5:10 change into sports bras, shoes, take a piss, brush my teeth

5:15ish start up Hulu and hop on the treadmill.  planned 5 miles with fartleks but do 6.25 instead because no kids were awake yet.

6:10 a.m. drink several cups of water. fill up cup with milk for Red and put it on her bed table for when she wakes up.

6:15 a.m. brush teeth, put in contacts, wash face then hop into shower

6:25 a.m. put on my underwear and bra then grab pump bottles for next session

6:30 a.m. do a plank then turn on the bravo app so i can watch RHOBH while i pump.

6:45 a.m. finish pumping.  got another 7 ounces. start to pack pump for work but E wakes up so I leave everything out and feed her a bottle.  6:55 a.m.  E pukes on herself and me, but I am still in just my undies so i just rinse off.  Change her and Red walks into the room while i change E.

7:05 a.m.  Force Red to go potty and then get her dressed for school all while holding onto the baby who now weighs 14 pounds and is hopefully giving me awesome arm muscles

7:20 a.m.  Turn on adventure time for Red.  Feed her yogurt and applesauce because child will not feed herself.  still holding E -gotta get in my strength training ha.

7:35 a.m. Go back upstairs to gather my pump stuff.  Clean out bottle and fill it up, put in fridge and pack bottles for babysitter.

7:42 a.m. I finally head upstairs to take a minute..literally A MINUTE to put on makeup.  i don’t know why it takes my sister so long to do hers.  My hair is a mess, but no time for that business.  i finally put E down in her pack n play while I get dressed.

7:48 a.m. E and I head downstairs and I put her in her pack n play down there so i can eat breakfast.  shove a couple hard boiled eggs into my mouth.  make a turkey roll up with some cheese.  pack up my pop and V-8 for later.  start my car with my remote.

7:55 a.m. kiss everyone goodbye..even the dogs!  take a finger of peanut butter from the jar before I go.

8:00 a.m. arrive at work and say hello to everyone.  take my pump into the bathroom and pump for about 12 minutes because i will not have time to do a midmorning one like i usually do.  get only about 5 ounces.

8:15 a.m drive to remote location to work.  work there until 12:30. take company car back to work then drive home for lunch.

12:40 p.m. wash out pump bottles. microwave lunch.  take to couch so i can pump and eat.  dogs are begging for food and i am extra vigilant that they don’t take any.

1 p.m. Pumped about 13 ounces, dump it out because i have no empty bottles and i drank 2 caffeine laden pops before lunch.  munch on some sugary snacks and head back to work.

1:10 p.m. back at work.  Meet with IT guy.  Not working public desk, so i get to do some event planning from my office.  Fighting off a headache.

4:30 p.m. off of work.  Drive home and say goodbye to RKY who is covering a half shift tonight.  Red is busy playing and E sits in her Rock N Play and watches me pump.  She whines like a cat, it’s such a weird noise, because she wants me to hold her.  I feel bad but I pump about 12 ounces and then pick her up.

5:00 p.m. My mom comes over to paint our house.  Red “helps” her out.  I hold E and make myself some dinner.  I eat it and then I make Red her dinner.

5:30-6:00 p.m. I hold and feed E and attempt to make Red eat, which doesn’t work out so well and she ends up eating three pieces of bacon and that’s all.

6:00 p.m. I put E down and start to make brownies because of my massive sugar craving/addiction. She starts whining like a cat again after 5 minutes.  It’s pretty hilarious sounding, but I pick her up anyway.

6:15 p.m. I sit on the floor in the kitchen and play Play Doh with Red and E.  A daddy long legs appears out of nowhere and Red has  a meltdown.  She is terrified.  My mom stops painting to comfort her while i kill the thing.  Thank God it wasn’t a wolf spider.  Poor girl was panicking.

6:45 p.m. I take out the brownies and put them on the porch to cool.  Red gets out the kinetic sand to play with.  I hold E and play with Red, mostly trying to keep the dang sand in the box.  The dogs come over and try to eat it?

7:00 p.m. My mom leaves, and E needs a nap.  I rock her and put her down in her Rock n Play.  Then Red and I get out her valentines for school and we fill them out for her friends.  Then we look at pictures of Shopkins on the computer.

7:30 p.m. I eat too many brownies.  Then E wakes up, so we all head upstairs to put our pajamas on.  It is quite a process to get us all in our jammies.  I convince Red to brush her teeth and she does a pretty good job.  She also gets toothpaste all over her pjs, so I just try to wipe it off with a rag.  E is being very fussy and Red is trying to comfort her but it’s not helping.  This is when I feel my stress rising.  I manage to get ready for bed too.

8:00 p.m.  We pick out some books and sit on the couch to read them.  Then I feed E again while Red looks at books on her own.

8:45 p.m. I turn on the YouTube app and we find a toy review video to watch.

9:00 p.m. I change E and give her medicine (ear infection).  She is very happy and giggly.  I go to the couch to check on Red and she is fast asleep.  This is a surprise.  I put a binky in E’s mouth and lay her next to Red (they do this every night, it’s so cute).  She is also surprisingly out in about 2 minutes.

9:15 p.m. I wash some bottles and then get my pump bottles out.  I sit on the couch next to the kids and pump for about 20 minutes.

9:45 p.m. RKY comes home.  He puts the kids in their beds.  I pick up the living room a bit and let the dogs out once last time before bed.

10:00 p.m. I lay on the futon in RKY’s room and he turns on Ghost Adventures.  I fall asleep about 10 minutes later

11:00 p.m. He wakes me up and I head to our room to sleep.  I check my phone to make sure the alarm is on for 4:27 a.m. again.

Dreaming up conversations we’ll have tomorrow

Ok, so 35.5 miles last week.  I ran 111 miles in December and 122 in January, so that is an improvement.    Yay.  I occasionally had some knee twitches that I need to watch out for.  My “long run” was 7.25 miles.  Most of my runs were around 6.  My paces were right around 8 min/mile but I got down to 7:40 avg pace for one 6 miler.  I took Sunday as my rest day and ended up playing in the snow, shoveling snow, and running around a bit with the dog to drop off a bill.  Now that the roads are snow covered I thought I might actually be able to get some traction, but the temps have dipped down below 0 again.  So it was treadmill again.  I was dreading doing a planned 7.5 on the mill this morning so.. I didn’t do it. I kept hitting snooze on my phone alarm.  Finally got up at 6 and figured E would be up soon so I should try to do a couple miles at least.  Well she didn’t wake up til after 7 but Red got up at 6:45.  I got in 5.3 miles at 7:55 pace.  After RKY woke up, I shoveled a ton of snow until my arms were shaky.  So strength training happened.

I’m debating whether I should wait til nicer weather to up my long run distances.  Just keep it at 7 and work on speed until all the snow and ice is gone.  Hopefully that will be in March or sooner.  Did the groundhog see its shadow?  He always does, that little sh*t.  I am planning on doing 6 tomorrow which means getting my ass out of bed to pump at 4:30 and start running around 5.  Wrap it up before 6 (unless E needs fed), shower, and pump again before the kids are up for the day.  Man, I don’t know if I can maintain this schedule for another 8 months. zzzzzz

you are my peach

Starting to feel like normal again.  My body is anyway.  It’s still pretty stiff and I remember feeling like that for months and months after having Red, so no biggie.  I owe my chiro like $300 so that’s fun.  But I suppose it is worth it to run again.  It’s all been treadmill running due to ice and snow, and that is getting a bit boring.  I have ran through just about every Real Housewives season except one of OC.  Not really a fan of those broads.  Ran 7 miles at 8:02 pace and today ran 6.25 at 7:56.  That’s looking more normal.  I guess I should try speed work soon.  Yech.

Mentally I have been getting a bit down.  Not PPD down.  More like SAD down.  I need fresh air and sunlight!  I start to feel a bit like my life is …over..?  Like all the exciting stuff is over?  And I’m stuck in a job that I do like, but not sure I want to do for foreverrr.  At some point they’re going to stop giving me raises.  But I can’t find another job that will pay as much.  Being the breadwinner has its disadvantages.  One of them is not how much I get back from taxes.  I will be getting about 6500$  Two dependents and Head of Household and only my name on the mortgage.  I’m killing it.  PS I owe Target about 900$ and Discover card about 3k.  I also need to pay some doctor bills and take the dogs to the vet, and pay the aforementioned chiro.  I might even go to the dentist someday.  Add Disney trip cost to that and BOOM.  It’s gone.

Back to running… I have no goals right now.  I ran 32 miles last week.  I want to run more, but at the same time, I am tired.  Waking up at 4:30 every morning will do that ya.  I got used to running shorter and though my legs crave longer mileage, my head isn’t quite there yet.  I think it will be, come spring.  I have been going through some half marathon plans but none of them really catch my fancy.  It’s either too much mileage each day, or not enough.  Hal Higdon’s is full of 3 mile days.  Even the intermediate one.  (You) Only Faster has some plans that look too complicated.  I just want to run.  Sometimes faster, sometimes slower.  I guess I will figure something out.

know you well enough to hate you now

I’m slowly getting better.  Not faster.  But better.  I ran 6 miles on the treadmill today in 50:25.  It didn’t really hurt or feel weird at all but I was pretty bored.  RHOBH kept me somewhat entertained.  A couple of miles were 8:06 and the last mile was 8:00.  So I am slowly getting back down.  Still afraid to do any speed work.  I hope to get outside to run tomorrow since it will be in the 30s.  I ran outside for a bit on Saturday morning and was too paranoid about falling on the ice.  A lot of the snow has been melting and refreezing over night.  After last year’s fall where I hit my head, I have been extra cautious.

Just got back from the chiro.  I really credit her for me being able to run again.  I also haven’t been getting migraines like I did last year, so that’s awesome.  Not sure I believe that’s the result of chiropractic, or some other thing entirely.

Tomorrow I guess I will try to get in 5 miles, with some outside.  I’m going to try to do a fast run at some point this week.  By fast I mean what my easy daily pace used to be- in the upper 7s.  Probably try to do that for 3 miles.  Then I will go for a long run and probably do it by time- 55 minutes.  Maybe next week I can be back to an hour.  Pretty sure my treadmill is still set at a 2.0 incline.  I don’t like to fuss with it much because one day I got it stuck at some ungodly grade.  But hill work should be in my future soon too.

While I was injured, I did a lot of cross training that I never really recorded.  I did the 20 minute insanity workout a few times.  I didn’t find it that hard.  I did Jillian Michaels Hard Body and I did her Kettle bell workout a couple times, but that was rough because I could feel it in my injured hips/back.  I did Jackie Warner workouts quite a few times.  I did yoga once, I think.  Maybe none.  I did a Bob Harper workout once too.  It’s a tough one.  I liked feeling like I was getting stronger and experiencing that muscle fatigue.  I hope to still work those in some how, but it’s rough with my limited time frame.  Today, E woke up when I was just 15 minutes into my run.  Luckily she fell back asleep until I finished.  Then I fed her and she fell back asleep, so I was able to shower and get ready for work while she slept.  While I was pumping, Red woke up, so i got her ready and quick shoved some breakfast in my mouth 2 minutes before I had to leave for work.  I need to pump again, but I feel guilty taking another break at work to do so.  I think I can last until noon.